well just call me stupid...

Proverbs 12:1--To learn, you must love discipline; it is stupid to hate correction.

Why does it seem that God's way of doing things are so polar opposite of what I want him to do? I want to learn from the rewards of doing right, yet God says I learn from the discipline he gives when I mess up. I think it's smart to avoid admitting mistakes, but God says I'm stupid for hating the correction that comes from acknowledging my screwups. Yet still I try to do things my way and ask God to honor it. I'll continue to ignorantly think I'm gaining knowledge by simply skating through a routine of easyness. I'll hold in my failures to save my pride. I'll keep myself bottled up to save a reputation. Sound familiar? It should, because I see it everyday. No one likes discipline, and no one like correction. Everyone wants to learn by reward and everyone wants to avoid admitting their faults. I guess until we learn to do things God's way, we'll all just walk around stupid. It all comes down to pride I guess, including me. No one wants to admit it, but no one really believes that God has the right to discipline and correct our lives. After all, it's "my life." Oh God, save me and my human companions from ourselves. Help us love your discipline and seek your correction. Then maybe, just maybe, we'll start doing life and church a little bit more like you want.